How did I get here?

Is anybody going to read this, or am I just finding an outlet to vent- other than my best friend and my long suffering husband?

I have been living here in Nebraska for 3 years, and still I am not adjusted to life in the Midwest, the 'Great Plains'
I grew up in East London. Dirty, busy, crowded, limited 'green spaces'. We didn't have a back yard until I was 11. Before that my younger sister and I used to play along a concrete landing, 4 feet wide and about 50 ft long! I always dreamed of living in the countryside, surrounded by farms, lots of animals and wide open spaces.
Be careful what you wish for......

In January 2002, I left London for good. I travelled Europe for a year, and eventually settled in southern Spain, close to my sister, Grandma, Uncle and other family. Spain was always a second home to me. Grandma moved back there from London in 1987, and my sister and I would spend our summer break there every year. It seemed natural to stay there, in my second home.
I loved where I was living. The Mediterranean was my front yard, the Mountains the back yard. I had found paradise! My then husband and I eventually got divorced. So there I was, 30th birthday looming, single and living with my 2 dogs at my sister's house further along the coast. I was Bridget Jones!
After a year, I met an American guy. We got along great, exchanged phone numbers, and email addresses as we lived 2 1/2 hours away from each other. I didn't expect much from it if I am honest, but we kept in touch, dated kind of long distance, did the 'weekend' thing, and went our seperate ways during the work week. He was in the US Air Force, and was stationed in Spain, for about another 6 months, things got serious, we got serious, then he got orders back to the USA. Did I stay or should I go?
I decided to take a chance, life is too short to wonder 'what if', I have always firmly believed that.
After many problems with immigration, I arrived permanantly in June 2008. That is when my love/hate relationship with the Midwest began... and still, it carries on.